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Sunday, May 2, 2010

april ended. and may started.
everything was put to an end and this's what i shld have done long ago..

finally i can start afresh. some bad habits i admit i still cant swear off but is just a matter of time.
so now everyday i'm as usual busy with work.
practically from mon to sat, i got brownie factory,tuitions and workshop assistant to work on.
do i sound rich? lol.. but seriously those dont earn much lo..
still got to spend it on my driving!!! hopefully soon.
so now i left with sun to slp all i want and just laze around..

i love how i make myself so busy and even tired myself out.
this way i got no time to think about some nonsenses that can affect me.
though im pretty sick of giving the fake smile but im trying hard not to be expose..
i really hope someone can change me but it seems so impossible.
sometimes my inner me feel so disgusted yet got to encourage my body to keep doing it.
is just so confusing.
life seems long when everything dont go ur way
and u cant bloody give up ur life cause is just a stupid act..
i want to turn everything into positive and not negative
but even i have the guts, i dont have the luck! how terrible can it be..

today i experience the same old thing again.
someone who seemed so pissed keep scolding vulgar said cant be bothered anymore
in the end changes mind for the sake of that someone.
hahahaha.. how funny it is right?
why bothered to act infront of me?
yes u're angry but u didnt heck care right? regardless of what u said u dont care and stuffs u still want that someone to turn up that's why u change the 'plan' what.
i feel totally disgusted for entertaining u for even a sec.
though the change of plan was a gd thing but i just feel disgusted.
maybe i've misunderstood u.. but u know what? i cant be bothered.